Change.



I feel that recently change has become a major component in my life. As I look back on the past couple of years, months, and even weeks, it's change that sticks out the most to me. Change effects everyone in different ways. I think a lot of times it can be super overwhelming and discouraging. Some might say that it is just a matter of perspective, but I honestly feel that there are times when perspective doesn't change the severity or seriousness of change. The hardest part about change for me, is learning to adapt. I'm the kind of person that finds a groove that works and sticks with it. When there is an obstacle (change) in my "groove" I have a hard time settling into a different one. Being forced to change is helping me to overcome that though. I am finding a new me amidst all the changes. I am learning my vulnerabilities and my weaknesses. But at the same time I am beginning to notice my strengths. The one thing that I have to point out is that no matter the change, be it good or bad, we need to remember the Lord. If it is a good change, we need to be appreciative and show our gratitude. If it is a bad, well, more difficult change, we need to turn to the Lord for strength and guidance. It's during the hard changes that we seclude ourselves from Him. We expect and want someone to be there to help us through it, but we shut Him out. This is especially hard for me. I want a physical body that is here on this earth to come hold me and let me cry on their shoulder. It's hard for me to turn to the Lord. But really if you think about it, it shouldn't be hard at all. Who knows better what I'm feeling than Christ? Ya He's not here in a mortal body to hold me, but I can feel Him if I choose to. He will touch me so that I know He is close by and He is listening to my every word. He is crying for me, and crying with me. A good good friend of mine reminded me recently, that when you feel so alone that you just don't know what to do, you have two options. You can either: 1) get angry and push everyone and everything away and feel hurt and regret, or 2) read your scriptures and pray so that the Lord can take over and get you through. I'm sure that each of us has probably chosen each of those at some point. As sad as it is to admit, I have a tendency to lean towards option 1. I know option 2 will make me stronger. It will make me happier and more confident, and when I remember that, it's easier to turn to the Lord.


Change is a test. A test of our faith, our patience, and our character. When things get rough and tough for me, I will remember that the Lord is there to build me up. With Him on my side, I can take on any change that comes my way.